The person I am

It is definitely a great adventure to be a teenager. During this colorful part of my life a lot of questions appeared in my tiny head. The one, that interested me the most, was related to my personality.
I think my childhood had a great deal of influence on the person I became. I was the child, every mother wants to have. I was well-behaved, never had problems in school, teachers were very happy with my work, had no issues with other children. In home, I helped my mother a lot - with cleaning, cooking and all those house stuff. I behaved perfectly.
However, later in my life I realized that I had one big, fat problem - I was shy. The second problem was that I didn't realized it until I became 9th grade and fell in love with.. a guy.. maybe for the first time it was for real. Let me explain how bad the situation was. I liked him a lot, eventually it turned out that he liked me too. The greatest coincidence that could happen to a teenage girl. Everything was amazing, I was the happiest girl in the world. BUT when we finally spent some time together, I saw that I couldn't behave like me around him, I couldn't talk, I couldn't think. It was like someone put a ball in my throat and paralyzed my brain function. When everything fell apart, obviously why, and I was heartbroken :D /yeah, it sounds funny now/, I realized that the problem was me or more correctly my shyness.
Why am I such a person? I don't want to be shy! I want to be talkative, outgoing. I don't want to give such a big importance to such a small thing like a boy. I don't deserve to be unhappy because of him.
That was the moment when the process began.
I saw myself in a different light. I was the most important person in my new world. My happiness, my well-being. I realized that if I don't make myself feel good, no one will do it for me. I realized that I should become a little selfish, should care less about the other, unimportant people. I had to understand what is important for me. Well, it is my lovely family and my dear friend. They actually helped me a lot to become the person I am now.
It took me a lot of time. I had to read a lot of books and articles, had to meet many different people, make some mistakes, learn from the consequences.
But I think I've made it. I am actually who I wanted to be in 9th grade - smiling, talkative, a little selfish, not caring about the opinion of others, especially boys. The only boy I care about is my brother. I feel good in my skin. I love the person I am now.
If there is something that you don't like about yourself, you should definitely change it. You are the one to do it. Don't waste your time in skin, which is not your size.